I woke up this morning, and something inside of me had changed. I took the time to reflect on my life, and the choices I have been making in my past, and noticing that I am saying one thing, and always doing another. I have decided to quit talking the talk, and start living instead. I intend on becoming a better person than what I have been.

I would like to apologize for the way I have been acting the last few months. I have been acting like a child throwing a temper tantrum and I'm sick of it. I have emerged from that shell and am growing into a new shell. A better shell.

I have been letting the devil into my life more than I'd like. I have been losing my temper and my patience, in times when I should have held my tongue. I have been nothing but a drag while in the forums and the chatroom, because I am letting my real life seep through, my problems to surface and it's killing me. I have decided I'm done letter the devil control me. I have returned back into the light and my aspirations of becoming a better person.

I refuse to allow negative thoughts to be given voice, because once voiced they become real. I will start supressing the thoughts, and start paying it forward as I used to so very long ago. I recall a time when a friend was in need, and I had expressed myself in a way I never imagined was possible. I believe in God, and I have strayed too far from his path. I don't expect all of you to agree with it, but I do expect you to respect it. I'm a proud Canadian, and a proud Catholic. I believe in God, and the power his words. If somebody does me wrong, I'm willing to turn the other cheek. I am ready to become the bigger man and forgive people for their sins, I'm ready to stop judging people.

I intend on becoming a better person, being the best that I can be. I hope that over the weekend the transformation will take place completely. I intend on giving work my 100% and to start worrying less about the things in which I have no power, and focusing my thoughts on remaining positive. I have a decent life, but I want it to be better. I want to be a better person.

Again, I apologize to anyone I have hurt, and I thank those who have stood by me through my trying times. I am lucky to have such wonderful people in my life. I'm going to fight for my beliefs. I am tired of hiding within myself. It's time to make the first step towards a brighter future.

It's a quantum leap of maturity to understand that the only thing we have power over is ourselves, so congratulations on making that realization.

We can't change the cards we are dealt, but we can manage how we react to them, how we play them, and how we affect the people around us. If we can it with grace and kindness, then we can then hope to inspire the same grace around us.

Well done for choosing to make that journey. If you ever feel it is getting hard, feel free to PM me.

God Bless you, and I wish you good fortune in all that you do, flirt. Know that your innmates are here for you.